My server on which I hosted my email, websites, code repositories and so much more crashed back in June. I didn’t even notice until much later, because the emails that were supposed to tell me that one of the hard drives had died went into the spam folders both on my mail server and on gmail. For some reason though I finally saw a mail that told me about the degraded array. First thing I did was to contact my hoster who changed the hard-drive before I could even finish pulling backups of … this blog for example. Or of my virtual machine that hosted my email server. Then I messed up integrating the new harddrive. Never done that before. And lost the whole server in the process. (Despite the gracious and generous help of others)
Ever since then my digital life has been … not quite dead but not alive either. At first I tried to reclaim the server and tried setting up email through a docker container. It worked somewhat. But I never managed to configure it the way I needed and I never learned docker sufficiently to feel “back in control”. So I was not getting all my emails. Worse or not: some emails were even bouncing f.e. To services like kickstarter. That’s how I noticed something was wrong in the first place, so probably good.
Over the summer I didn’t have time to fix the situation. I noticed how dependent I was on all these services and how much time it had taken to set it up and how little to destroy it. A few weeks ago I decided, to stuff my personal paranoia somewhere and move away from hosting stuff myself. I moved one of my mail domains to gmail and my blog to wordpress. And here I am typing away my first blogpost in months.
And as of next week I am finally back to working on the Novel (yes capitalized) … full time.
Since I never finished a draft for last year’s NaNoWriMo, I am not doing NaNoWriMo this year. It turned out that my lack of preparation really messed up the story. I am still working on it. So far I’ve written more than 220.000 words for the project less than half of which are in the current draft. Continue reading “Status Update November”
Like the Cylons I finally have a plan. The project I am working on which was originally titled “Mind Bleed” and was started in October/November 2014 for the NaNoWriMo is still not finished. I had too little time to plan and that fact has come back twice to bite me. The original November draft came to about 53k words. In my ‘deleted scenes’ folder I have another 20k. The current draft begun as the first rewrite. It is now titled “The Cassandra Project” and I am just shy of crossing the 100k mark. But I am labeling the current version as the second rewrite or third draft, because when I got to about the same mark as the original draft I got stuck again. Why? The ending. What I had in mind just didn’t make any sense. And I couldn’t find a way to get there. Continue reading “Cylon Writing”
I just noticed that I didn’t update since finishing NaNoWriMo.
Well, besides a six week trip to South-East Asia, I haven’t been idling. I spent a bit of time writing a few flash pieces on WriteOn. But for some reason I dropped out of that community. I let myself get too involved, and it started taking too much time. And I felt I had to concentrate on starting the second draft of Mind Bleed. Because I never finished the first draft of my NaNo novel. I made it to 55k words but not to the end of the story. I got stuck somewhere around two thirds.
So I spent some time traveling. Then some time thinking of what I did wrong the first time around. I found I had done too little planning of characters, plot and setting? So basically everything was missing. I tried to fix that with a month of planning.
It didn’t turn out easy.
I am now just 700 words shy of 60k on the second draft, and I got stuck yet again around the two thirds mark. I could recycle next to nothing from the original draft. I rewrote everything and it became a new story. But somehow I ended up in a different corner with the same result: stuck. A couple of days ago, I unstuck myself by deciding to write the prologue. In my timeline, I have a very well defined set of events that lead up to the current story. It suddenly became easy again to write 2k words a day where before I was struggling to get even a 1000.
Why do I have such a hard time writing the end of my stories?
I am optimistic concerning the prologue. And I believe with that part of the story in place, I can finally fix my main character’s arc. The project also suffers from being too ambitious. I have three viewpoint characters (plus two in an interlude). I am estimating that the prologue-part of the story will take another 6-8k words, and the wrapping up of the story will need another 15-20k.
I finished the 50k on Friday. It was a back-breaking – quite nearly literally – day of writing. I wrote about 4k words that day. I just wanted to be able to take a break on Saturday. Here are my final diary entries from the writing marathon that is NaNoWriMo.
Every week-end there’s a writing prompt called “Week-end write in” on WriteOn. This week-end it was “imagine a dinner-party where a secret is revealed”. The challenge is to do this in 500 words. So here’s my entry for this week-end.